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Life Will Throw You a Curveball…Plan for it.

I’ve been quiet these past 6 months. Just as I’ve worked through my thoughts and feel ready to share what I’ve been experiencing and learning, the next thing happens and I’m floundering again, feeling like whatever I could have added to the conversation is now irrelevant. I know I’m not alone in this.

I had thoughts in March and April regarding our displaced fears and perceptions on death; things I’m still sorting through. Then it was heading into summer and an iota of normalcy in our rural-country life. Now we sit on the precipice of unknowns once again, as we wait to hear the decisions regarding what schooling will look like.

My father in law said this past week to me, “Whatever is decided is going to be temporary.” This whole thing started with only two weeks, then 6 weeks, then two months, and now here we are 5 months later, 145 days since the world imploded. The temporary constantly being reshaped.

We have all sat waiting, with batted breath, to find out when we have permission to go about our lives, to do life without this pervasive fear. Mentally at war with ourselves, our neighbors, and a barrage of invisible and unknown entities.

This time of year is usually filled with excitement for Autumn, a return to schedules and normalcy, crisp mornings, new crayons, and empty notebooks. Now there is just anxiety and an endless sea of questions and unknowns.

My suggestion: Plan and schedule for what you can control. You know you’re going to need dinners…meal plan. You know you’re going to need some school supplies….get them. You know you are going to need to have a schedule…start thinking about your routines.

For a lot of us this is completely overwhelming. We get caught up in all of the unknown and forget to think about the little things that we can control and do know. Focus on those. Set daily or weekly goals for things you’d like to accomplish.

If you’re needing help in this area I HIGHLY suggest listening to MacKenzie Koppa’s Cultivating the Lovely podcast episode on Planning and Prepping for a Crazy Fall! She goes into details about using Plan to Eat, Trello, and Postmates (use code LOVELY100 for a $100 FREE delivery credit) to streamline your Autumn.

She’s also planning to do a bunch of lives on Instagram (with deep dives and 1 on 1 coaching in the Patreon group) going into detail about how to use the tools available to you to keep the chaos to a minimum.

We have to take those first steps to reclaiming our lives and figuring out how to plan for what we do know, even if it’s just in the little things.

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Ten Years in the Making

It has been a year! A decade even.

We started 2010 with the birth of our first child a month before…four years of waiting and wondering if anything we were putting ourselves through would result in being parents.

Ten years later…we have 5 kids. Didn’t see that one coming! Whenever anyone asked about how many children we would have (WHY DO PEOPLE ASK THOSE QUESTIONS?!) my response was “we will take them one at a time” *face palm* We know how that one turned out.

Ten years ago I was a VERY different person.

How could I have NOT changed in the past decade?! No matter what as time marches on things happen and we change with them. In all honesty, I don’t remember much of the past ten years, they’ve all blurred together in a wash, rinse, repeat cycle of babies and bills. 

I don’t remember what I was even like ten years ago. I was, in some ways still very full of hope and optimism for everything, despite having realized how hard life can hit us and how much it can hurt (hello…infertility and a husband that was sidelined for two years due to severe back pain, and then back surgery).

I still didn’t know what our family would look like, and didn’t really dare to dream. I still saw homeschooling in our future, and definitely not public school. Matthew was still working for my parents and there was nothing in our minds as to that ending.

If anything I have realized the importance of being able to stand on my own two feet. In someways I have become jaded and hardened about the world, and I don’t think of that as a bad thing. I have realized that while I want friends and family around me,  I need to be able to distance myself and do what needs to be done for myself, and not in a selfish way.

I have seen too much to be content to sit with my blinders on, unaware of what is going on around me. I have seen too many families pulled apart, women left scrabbling to provide for their children, too many women sacrificing themselves and who God created them to be, for the idealization of some image as a wife and mother.

For myself, I have made it a priority to grow, to distance myself from the relationships, ideas, and things that are harming me. It isn’t easy: People especially don’t like it when you refuse to play their game by their rules, and there have been a lot of players in my life.

What does the decade of 2020 look like for me?

I have not a clue. The past year has taught me that. I’m sure some would advise that I “vision cast” and write my “5 Year Plan”, but I can’t. All I can do is move forward on whatever path I choose at that moment.

Maybe I’ll finish my Master’s, maybe I won’t. Maybe we’ll move a few towns or states away, maybe we’ll stay right where we are. Maybe I’ll be working full time as a librarian, maybe I’ll be homeschooling a handful of my kids. 

Whatever pathway I’m on I can promise you this; there will be books, there will be quilts, there will be food, there will be my children growing up and out, there will be traveling, there will be making and meeting new {online} friends. There will be struggle, and heartache, and tears, but there will also be growth, and joy, and love.

In 10 years I will be almost 50…I can’t wrap my head around that.

For now though, I wish you all a wonderful New Year, and I will see you in 2020.

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